“Forgiveness is the horse that pulls the cart of good works.” -Walter Marshall
I had a stellar week, if I don’t say so myself. Can I tell you about it?
*I gave away a few books to friends.
*I encouraged my husband.
*I gave my kids grace and dazzled them with the love of Jesus.
*I led the women in our Gospel Community group.
*I invited a bunch of women and their children to my home and set up babysitting for them.
*I took a friend to a new church forty-five minutes from my house so that she didn’t have to go alone.
*I cared for sick kids, carted them to the beach, and boogie boarded with them. I took them to the pool and to be with their friends’.
*I took a friend’s kids for a few hours so she could get some stuff done.
*I called to check in on a lonely friend.
*I gave counsel to a hurting and discouraged woman.
As a Christian, I often feel the heavy weight of putting my best foot forward no matter what is happening in my life. Because I believe in Jesus Christ, I should always be happy and praising God at every moment. The problem is, it’s not true; I don’t feel that way all the time. In the midst of sorrow and suffering I want to throw my bible rather than read it; I want to cry rather than praise; I want to scream “why?!” rather than give thanks. Even after about six years of biblical and theological study, when I’m hit with sorrow and suffering my heart still breaks, I still cry out and weep and, some times, even doubt.
But these emotions are not signs of disbelief or unfaithfulness.
Rather, they are the desperate and honest cries of a broken heart; cries that demonstrate my humanity and my deep need for something bigger than and beyond myself. In sorrow and suffering, I am backed into a corner, all my abilities and strengths rendered useless. I am broken. I am needy. I am helpless. In sorrow and suffering, I fall down before the Cross and plead for help and am made fully aware of my finitude and my inability to do anything else.
Originally published at www.mbird.com http://www.mbird.com/2010/05/better-than-hallelujah/